confused? -x

change
change
change

thats all what i've been seeing lately.
nothing but that.
everything.
is.
different.
now..




i'm loosing everyone who was there for me.
those who once cared.

but then.
here i am, gaining old friends back into my life, and making new ones..

so is this all so bad in the end?
you win some you lose some, kind of thing?

i dunno.
it makes me feel empty yet alive at the same time.

its so confusing..

secrets? -x

secrets.
what are they really?

a bunch of messed up memories not wanting to recreate?
a bunch of messed up words that bring hatred and guilt?
a bunch of messed up people and they're horrible choices?
all of the above?
none of them at all?

who knows.
but whatever i do know is secrets are suppose to be kept.
locked up in your mind.
the day that you decide to share that secret.
is the day that it will transform into something otherwise.
just a bunch of useless words.
and a way into your life.
a way to ruin you.

all secrets are suppose to be kept.
but all secrets will be eventually told.
since were all curious human beings.

we all have secrets.
all that we've told.
and others we haven't.
yet.

we all know other peoples secrets.
all that we've told.
and others we haven't.
yet.

i just wish we didn't all have to be hypocrites.

♥